What's the point?

“If I’m alive, then I haven’t drunk enough,” she writes. “Are you drinking now?”  he responds. “Yeah, still have three more liters of Vodka to get through”. He stares at the words on the screen.  Three  liters? How does a person even ingest such amounts ?  “But why, why do you want to drink yourself to death?” He desperately needs a cigarette, but daren’t leave the seat.  “Because nothing matters to me any more.” The words hit him in the chest like a kick from a horse. For awhile he just feels numb. What now, he thinks, what do I say to that? Thing is, he doesn’t even know if the person he is chatting with is a woman (he is assuming he is speaking with a woman because of the nick used) or an old git, or a teenager..... who knows with the net.  Why does she want to die, more so, is there anything he can write that would be of any use?     “Was there something that used to mean something to you?” he types tentatively, "do you have any friends or something you enjoy doing?”   “What’s the point, it always ends the same way,” she answers. “How do you mean, you mean they leave you?” he waits with his fingers hovering over the keys. He really wants a cigarette, so he decides to bolt for them. He quickly lights one, inhales, and feels a bit calmer. “That too, but mainly I end up hurting them because of my drinking, but I am not going to stop…..like I said, I have three more liters to get through,” she writes.  “How old are you?” he asks. “23 started drinking when I was 10.”   Whether the chatter was a female or male, 10 is very young to start drinking he thinks. . “Nothing really matters, there’s no real point to anything, it all ends up in pain anyways,” she writes and he gets a sinking feeling in his stomach. He needs to keep her talking; he learnt that when he was training as a crisis counselor so he asks: “Is there anyone you feel comfortable talking with?” “Yeah, but she’s not here now so I am going to go,” and with those words she exits the chat room.

Why do some of us sometimes feel like nothing matters, that there’s no point?
Perhaps we have lost hope and feel that nothing we do make any difference, so we have become indifferent. If that is the case then taking any kind of action will seem pointless.  Depression can often follow on the heels of indifference.  In some cases the depression may be a chemical imbalance, for others it may an accumulation of rejections, feelings of alienation, lack of sleep, low energy, loneliness, unemployment, and the list goes on. When we lose hope, we may find ourselves very skeptical towards any suggestions from well-meaning friends and family members. If we have not experienced positive, or the desired outcomes to the efforts we have made, we may become reluctant to try anything at all.
Indifference is often a symptom, not a cause, and to overcome it, we need to discover the underlying reason for our indifference. This may involve looking at our health, our diet, and the company we keep, our family dynamics, our habits, and if possible try to discover if there may have been a triggering event.

Perhaps we have become “stuck”; we may have developed an indisposition to change. Whether we are aware of it or not, we function according to our individual construct of reality; the practices, prejudices, experiences and beliefs (true or false) imbedded in our brain. “This is the only way to do it”, ‘”That’s the wrong way…”, “I tried it once, it didn’t work, so it won’t work”, “that’s the way those people all are”, et cetera.  If we can’t find the “point” with our current thinking, perhaps we may entertain new thoughts, challenge some of our beliefs, and look for hope in new places. “Unfreeze” our thinking so to speak.  What’s the point? To find it.
"All human wisdom is summed up in two words; wait and hope"
(Alexandre Dumas)