Just do you........what does that even mean?

 With utmost sincerity she looks him in the eyes and says:

''Just do you. Just be you.''

''Yeah, but what if you don't know who you really are? he says to himself.

He looks at his face in the mirror and it seems to him as

if the contours of his face are blurring.

What does just do you really mean?

Does it mean being indifferent to how others may perceive

me?

Does it mean doing what is right for me even if that causes

distress or concerns for others?

Or does it perhaps mean being genuine?

But, and this is a big but for me, does not who we are

vary depending on circumstances/situations, emotional states,

and previous experiences(memories)?

Some say that the self consists of three different domains:

the experiential self (memories), the ''narrator self/the interpreter'',

and the public self/persona.

Having said that, although we tend to experience the self as a 

sense of continuity and unity, most of us have probably experienced

times when we have felt conflicted, confused or uncertain about

who we really are.

(''That's not like me!! I'm not usually this emotional, I don't

know what got into me, etc. etc.'')

We may feel as if there is one solid ''me/self'' but according

to those in the know, to be a human is to experience a 

multiplicity of self-states.

Perhaps we think of the self as a ''thing'', as in that what we feel 

and think is always the same, but were we to recollect past

patterns of behaviour I have a feeling we would find

inconsistencies in those behaviour patterns.

Why? Because situations/circumstances matter.

Who we are with and where we are influence our sense of

self. 

''When I'm with my family I feel that I can be myself,

when I'm with people I don't really know I feel a bit

self-conscious, spending time doing my own thing I feel

selfish, etc. etc.''

 How we experience the self is often very influenced by

how we believe others see us.

Basically, our concept of who we are is shaped not only by

ourselves but also by others.

Unfortunately, sometimes our own opinions of who we are

can become blurred and skewed by too much reliance

on others opinions.

The advent of social media which allows us to share content

with others, have made it possible for us to create ''fictitious''

selves. 

You don't have to do you, you can do the you you

would like to be.

Although the long-term psychological impact social media has 

and or will have on individuals may still be somewhat uncertain,

we do know some things.

We know that our lives are and have been digitized and

become tied up in metrics and algorithms. 

Our ''real'' selves have been split into online ''avatars'',

 profile images(fake or real) and status updates(fake or real).

Connected as we are, in my view, what we have ignorantly unleashed

is a growing number of complex psychological issues

that has changed our collective sense of reality. 

Is it even possible to be ''real'' if you don't have any content about

yourself on the internet, don't own an i-Thingy or any

other tech-thing?

Have we been swept up so far into the virtual world

that we have lost all sense of the ''real'' us, the ''real'' world,

and taking the time to make ''real'' connections with ''real''

family, friends and strangers?

Stepping away from the virtual world and its rewards,

how can one become a more ''real/genuine'' person?

''Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom,'' so

said Aristotle.

Perhaps, 

I am today not what I was yesterday, 

nor what I will be tomorrow,

who I am,

 is still,

to be decided.

(Citizen Z)

In my view,

You do have to continue, as you grow as a human,

to ask yourself the question: who am I, and is it who I want to be?

about the image: graphite on paper

Ted(dy) Talks.......

Sometimes I have found it easier and perhaps also more

succinct, to express my thoughts with the help of a

''cartoon-ish'' figure.

So let me introduce you to Teddy. 

The idea for Teddy comes from a tiny keyring Bear that 

hangs on a pin in my kitchen.

 

Teddy is an inquisitive and philosophizing little bear

so he will keep popping up every time he's got

something on his mind that he wants to share with us.

''The world of the Teddy bear is an innocent one, a world

that gives delight and hurts not, a world that appeals to all

generations and all nationalities.''

(Gyles Brandreth)

about the images: inks, graphite, acrylic, water colours on paper.

On the importance of beauty.............

''Beauty awakens the soul to act.'' (Dante Alighieri)

Some say that ''beauty is a key part of how we understand and

interact with the world around us''.

Having the ability to appreciate beauty,

 some even view as a basic human need.

However, when it comes to defining exactly what makes something

beautiful, well, opinions often differ.

This, in my view, is because the perception of beauty is 

 a subjective experience.

Some research suggests that our ability of being able to appreciate

beauty rest with our ''stored'' (memories/thoughts) experiences of beauty,

plus our emotional state of mind at the time of the encounter.

No matter how glorious a sunrise may sparkle before us,

if we are feeling depressed or bilious while watching it, I

doubt that we would be able to truly appreciate it.

As far as I can ascertain, in order for us to be able to appreciate

beauty we need to be emotionally available and open in order

to do so.

Allowing beauty to ''awaken our souls'' we may 

find ourselves surprised at our emotional response.

''The sunrise was so beautiful it brought tears to my eyes.''

''Listening to the music made me feel so happy that I

had to get up and dance.''

''Touching the dolphin's beautiful body made me feel sad.'' 

Beautiful things can evoke a number of different emotions

in us such as: awe, wonder, admiration, fascination, 

inspiration, etc. etc. as well as joy and sadness.

Even perhaps at times, ..... a sense of timelessness.

What may make someone hold their breath at the sight of a rare

flower, bird, painting, building, seascape, landscape, etc.

etc.  may leave someone else indifferent.

Beauty, though mostly subjective, is often influenced by 

culture, tradition, environment, media and upbringing.

Something that may at our first encounter seem uninteresting and

 ordinary may change as we learn and come to understand more 

of/about that something.

When I first arrived in Australia I found it very hard to 

appreciate and see the beauty of the Australian landscape.

To me it was just brown, scraggly and deadly.(literally!)

(Mind you, I arrived here in the midst of bush fires and

drought.)

However, after a number of walks in the rainforest, walks on the 

beach with its crystal blue waters and white soft sand, I

started to change my opinion.

As time passed I discovered more and more beauty.

Unbelievably colourful and beautiful birds, butterflies,

fishes, trees, etc. etc. and yes, even insects.

(This is a water colour/ink painting of an Australian Fairy wren

I made.)

In my eyes, even an old and rusty chain can be a thing of beauty.

Although we perceive almost 80% of our impressions by sight,

we do also use our sense of smell, taste, touch, and what we hear

 when we determine if something is beautiful to us or not.

''That perfume smells beautiful, last night I had a beautiful 

tasting curry, the touch of the wool was beautiful, 

the opera singer had a beautiful voice, etc. etc.''

 What has been discovered is that when we experience beauty,

we get a dopamine boost.

In short, beauty makes us feel good.

''Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it,'' so says

Confucius.

Perhaps one could also say: ''There is beauty everywhere and in

everything but not everyone takes the time to notice it.''

Beauty, it seems to me, is not something one scrolls through,

nay, it needs our attention or else we may fail to notice and

appreciate it.

about the image: Acrylic on canvas

My attempt at painting a beautiful woman

in a Traditional Japanese inspired style.

Dare to be different

 Suddenly Miles Davis, an African-American Jazz musician,

arguably one of the greatest jazz composer/trumpeter of all

times, changed his music and appearance drastically.

Gone were the Armani suits and his cool, ''noir'' demeanor

and tunes.

Replaced by tight flared pants, colourful shirts, 

outrageous shades (sunglasses) and a new kind of

music that defied all attempts at classification.

Some of Miles's followers were outraged and thought that 

he had ''lost it'', others, predominately young people,

loved his new ''psychedelic/rock/jazz/free-form'' music.

After all, during the late sixties and early seventies there was

a lot of experimentation going on through most of the ''arts''.

In 1968 Miles met Betty Gray Mabry.

 Miles and Betty got married and Betty became Miles Davis's

wife, Betty Davis.

Some describe Betty Davis as a ''wildly flamboyant funk diva with

few equals with the gritty emotional realism of Tina Turner and

the futurist fashion sense of David Bowie, and the trend-

setting flair of Miles Davis.''

The marrige didn't last and in 1969 Miles and Betty divorced.

Betty released her last recording in 1975, ''Nasty Gal'', but like her

two albums before Nasty Gal, it had little commercial

success. 

Betty was mostly viewed as too controversial, too raunchy, 

using lyrics which were too sexually explicit, and with a sexually

aggressive stage persona.

In 1980 her father died and Betty went home to live with her mother.

Dealing with the loss of her father and a blinkered and biased 

music industry took its toll on Betty.

She sub combed to ''the darkness'' and was admitted into

a mental health institution. 

She decided to disappear.

But, her music is still around. I know, because

I have all her albums......

Being different, in my view, always comes with a cost.

Although it may be easy to think of the 60's and the 70's as

wild, experimental, free love and all that....it was also

very biased, tumultuous, patronizing, and a man's, man's world.

I know, cos' I was there.

As a female musician you were one of two B's: 

''Babe'' if you were willing to hop in the sack with any of

the male musicians, or ''Bitch'' if you were not

willing to do so.

At no point were you ever a third B, as in : a human Being.

Betty Davis was a strong, beautiful, talented and opinionated African

American woman.

She followed her own inner voice, she wrote lyrics that reflected 

her experiences, she performed on stage according to her lyrics,

but according to some of her friends, off stage, she was a quiet, 

sensitive, and deep person. 

In my experience as a female musician/song writer/composer/

bandleader, in order to be taken seriously by my fellow musicians

I have had to constantly prove not only that I am

as ''good'' as them, I have had to be better.

''She looks alright, but can she play?''

''You wanna play with the big boy's, you can carry your

own gear.''

''You wrote that tune? Who helped you?'' etc. etc. etc.

(If I turned down the advances made by one of my fellow

musicians the result would often mean a barrage of snide remarks,

crude ''jokes'', and different pieces of equipment

going missing.)

As things are today, it is possible to by-pass the need for a

record contract in order to expose one's talents as an artist to the world.

All one needs is a computer(i-Thingy) and an internet connection.

Well, not all, but there is definitely no need for any

''middle-men'' or even bias-challenged executives.

For artists who perhaps are a bit ''different'' to the mainstream,

who may have had many ''doors'' closed in their faces, I believe

that the fact that it is possible to share your art with others all

over the globe regardless, is fabulous.

Betty Davis fought for her unique voice to be heard, 

but, in the end, there were just too many barriers for her

 to break through.

But, before she called it quits, luckily for us, there are still

a number of albums and some footage available for us to enjoy.

''I needed to fit in or else no contract.

I learned that stars starve in silence."

(Betty Davis, Funk Diva and Performer extraordinaire.)

''Sometimes being different feels a lot like being alone.

But with that being said, being true to that and being

true to my standards and my way of doing things

in my art and music, everything that has made

me feel different.....in the end,

it has made me the happiest.''

(Lindsey Stirling)

about the image: graphite on paper

Whether we are holding a ''stick'' in our hand or the latest iPhone, the mind and body attached to the hand still has the same needs.

These are turbulent times.

Uncertain times, 

bewildering times,

unpredictable times.

Well, at least so it seems to me.

Us humans, we don't much like uncertainty hence

we have created something we call science.

And science, is a ''systematic enterprise that builds and

organizes knowledge in the form of testable explanations

and predictions of the universe''.

With the help of science we have been able to transform many

mysteries and uncertainties into firm and trustworthy knowledge

which in turn has assisted us in being able to make predictions

about what may transpire in the future.

Add to this technology.

Technology, in my view is basically the application of science.

Together technology and science continuously diminish the

''unknown'' and the ''uncertain'' and redefines the impossible

to the possible.

Having read this you may ask: ''So why are you saying: these are

uncertain, bewildering, and unpredictable times?''

 Mankind has achieved many scientific/technological/medical/etc.

 advancements. The uncertain, bewildering, and unpredictable 

I refer to is the emotional and mental state of mind of the

''I'', the me, the you, when we are by ourselves.

However, be that as it may, we have figured out

how to use a printer to make a new heart, how to make machines

talk to us, how to use electricity to run our cars, how to make it possible

to talk on a phone to anybody anywhere at any time, we can walk on

the moon, we can take pictures of a Black Hole, etc. etc. etc.

And yet, according to research....we are more anxious, more depressed, 

more isolated, more addicted, more lost, more confused, and more lonely than

ever.

Which makes me wonder: In our pursuit of ''progress'',

pragmatism, materialism and consumerism,

are we neglecting to nurture the ''finer'' aspects of our species?

As human beings, are we advancing?

 Have become better at kindness, compassion, forgiveness, honesty, 

caring, loyalty, understanding, tolerance, self-reflection, generosity, 

 solidarity, acceptance, etc. etc.?

Are we getting better at listening and being understanding of others

perspectives and opinions?

Are we getting better at being open-minded and tolerant of

others from countries and cultures different to ours?

Are we becoming less judgmental and more sympathetic to

others looking and or behaving differently to us?

Having said all this I also feel that I need to say that I acknowledge

that there are some among us who are tirelessly reminding us

that we need to rise above our baser instincts.

How well we connect with others is paramount to our survival.

Our brains and nervous systems need the attentiveness

and attunement(harmony) with others as much as we need

food and water. We also need it as it assists with our development

and emotional self-regulation. (According to attachment theory,

social baseline theory and neuroscience.)

In short, we need others so we need to be able to get along with

them.

To get along with others we need to be genuine, compassionate,

honest, open-minded, good listeners, trustworthy, supportive

and .... available.

To do this, we need words.

In my view, with our words we create and define our worlds.

Having an understanding of the power and impact that words have

gives us the opportunity to choose the words we use.

A few words of kindness can potentially:

make a person who feels invisible feel visible,

a person who feels insignificant feel significant,

a person who feels alienated feel connected,

a person who feels lonely feel included.

It can be easy to become seduced by mankind's many

scientific and technological achievements as

they are many and amazing.

But, whether we are holding a ''stick'' in our hand or

the latest iPhone, the mind and body attached to the hand

still has the same needs.

The need for a safe space, for food and water, loving

relationships and connections with others, recognition

and esteem, and the freedom to pursue his/her ''dreams''/talents.

Perhaps time has come for mankind to put down some of our

glitzy ''toys'' for a moment and instead spend more quality time on

how we can become more emotionally evolved human beings.

''The greatness of humanity is not in being a human, 

but in being humane.''

(Mahatma Gandhi)

about the image: pastel, ink on canvas  My feeble attempt

at illustrating thoughts/words and how at times they

seem to appear as a skyfall of colours in my mind